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on simon's bday, a randomer, etc

2007-08-17T12:42:00.000+08:00

simon's bday: 150889
went to botak jones at yck with him and lee jun. thing is when we 3 are together, things start gettin quite nonsensical. fulfilled one of his 'greatest' wishes: orderin beer. lol. got us a bottle of heineken but man, will probably be one of his biggest mistakes. not because he got drunk (well... maybe a bit. can't really tell..) but it went really bad with our food. i had a cajun chicken, simon had fish and chips and lee jun had a 'you siao' triple patty burger. food didn't really go down well. food aside, went on to sharing 'blackmail' quality stuff and thus i now know simon's (he's a sith lord wannabe) 'darker side' muahahaha.

a randomer:
jus a random thought: when you're late, isn't it better to tell the person waitin for you how late you truly goin to be rather than give them false hope that you goin to reach soon?
i quote an example: telling the person that you're reaching already when in fact, you've just left your house. i think the end product is still gonna be the same either way: the person waitin for you being pissed off and you being sorry and wanna change. but well, if the person knows how long he has to wait rather than knowing that you're reaching(a rehetoric statement), i think that kinda prepares him to wait longer. jus a randomer.

etc.
realized a trend abt myself: that when i'm tired, man do i get irritated and frustrated easily! man, thats crap. needa grow in the fruit of the spirit! Love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, gentleness, faithfulness and self-control! God help me. Amen.

a day in the life of jem

2007-08-10T11:25:00.000+08:00

went to celebrate hanyang's bday with ham at botak jones at clementi. have to say the food was really really good. would want to go there again someday.
went to simon's house to stay over after that. watched videos, played games and shared about our lives.
stayed for breakfast, played more games, watched more videos, shared more stuff.
went to meet lee jun after that. off to chom pang to eat lunch, to bycicle shops lookin for deals and eventually to bk for shepherding.
cancelled teaching to 2 weeks later in favour of sharing our lives. shared pretty long and pretty deep. walked him home, got some snacks(onion flavoured karoupok!) along the way.
took 980. fell asleep. woke up at united square(thank God). walked home.
reached home at abt 9+, fixed up the pics to send to ham, castle fight, msn.
some stuff happened. some stuff happened. some stuff happened. slept at 2.

overall, really enjoyed the sharing with my sheeps. quite deep stuff. also found closure on some stuff that i've been thinkin and commiting to God abt. things happened and found myself relying more and more on God. well thats abt it.

sheep

2007-08-05T13:10:00.000+08:00

I love my guys.

on God's love

2007-07-30T18:04:00.001+08:00

http://www.godtube.com/view_video.php?viewkey=ee73e63418003b47d7d5

on love

2007-07-27T00:43:00.000+08:00

Love never gives up.
Love cares more for others than for self.
Love doesn't want what it doesn't have.
Love doesn't strut,
Doesn't have a swelled head,
Doesn't force itself on others,
Isn't always "me first,"
Doesn't fly off the handle,
Doesn't keep score of the sins of others,
Doesn't revel when others grovel,
Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth,
Puts up with anything,
Trusts God always,
Always looks for the best,
Never looks back,
But keeps going to the end.

a day in the life of...

2007-07-19T23:38:00.000+08:00

a day in the life of Lee Jun (17th - 18th July 07)

0330: play enfo
0530: slp.

1100: wake up (due to thunder)
1101: go back slp

1430: wake up
1435: wash up
1450: watch movie
1550: watch youtube
1610: watch another movie
1640: mom comes back/eat
1820: movie finish/talk
1900: watch 7pm chinese show
2000: shepherding formal
2100: watch news/shepherding
2130: shepherding/formal
2215: use com

0330: slp

a day in the life of Jeremy (17th - 18th July 07)

0330: play enfo
0530: slp.

1100: wake up(due to thunder)
1101: wash up
1107: use computer/prepare stuff
1200: lunch
1230: bathe
1300: go novena square
1320: buy ez-link
1322: go yishun/play psp
1400: reach yishun/call Lee Jun
1425: reach Lee Jun's house
1430: woke Lee Jun up
1435: Lee Jun wash up/mess up his bed
1450: watch movie
1550: watch youtube
1610: watch another movie
1640: mom comes back/eat together
1820: movie finish/talk
1900: watch 7pm chinese show
2000: shepherding formal
2100: watch news/shepherding
2130: shepherding/formal
2214: go yishun interchange
2225: take bus to seng kang
2240: reach seng kang
2320: reach guo an's house
2321: wake guo an and cong
2324: play guit
2345: watch youtube
0030: guo an go cook noodle/sharing
0105: eat
0150: share life
0155: watch youtube
0325: msn with lee jun
0335: slp.

love

2007-07-17T01:37:00.000+08:00

love is selfless. it does not expect or demand reciprocation.

in worldly love, there is a need for reciprocation and where there is no reciprocation, a self defense mechanism pops out to shield the hurt for not being reciprocated and from there comes the instinct to hurt.

funny how it ends up the other side.

me and my sheep and cong's house

2007-07-15T20:56:00.000+08:00

jus to share wad i did yesterday/today

i think an interesting thing to note was that the musicians on duty for service yesterday were all my sheep. i think its a first to have a shepherd and all his sheep on duty. kinda interesting and sweet isn't it? lee jun, simon, ian and me.

after service, we all went to jian cong's house and learnt how to play poker, black jack and mah jong. lol. kinda interesting. all of us were aiming for a share of walmond's empire state building which were mah jong tiles we used as money.

stayed over with lee jun, steven, aloysious and jian cong(duh!). i have to say steven is really at puzzle fighter. kept playing with him until goodness knows wad time and then we cramped onto his bed. chose a very bad spot: between lee jun and steven with jian cong at my legs. lol. i could deal with the snoring until someone hugged me. twice. well, it would be ok except that his face was 2cm from mine.. -.-'

woke up at abt 1030 and rushed out as min-ops1 had cg at 11 while me and lee jun happily went home to slp.

well, i have to say that one of my love language would have to be time and i guess i like to key in certain memories with ppl before i forget them.

a randomer

2007-07-10T23:39:00.000+08:00

got this random thought while watchin an anime with my bro.

Isn't it ironic, that to be free means that you will be bound to the struggle for freedom.

farewell.

2007-07-02T09:43:00.000+08:00

i think its kinda true that we often take things for granted especially along the lines of continual existence. only when that continuity is threatened do we realize our flaw in behaviour and attitudes and begin to treasure it more. its ironic that we treasure things more just when we're about to lose them, when the realization hits that we might lose it forever. well, to the subject of the matter..
for the uninformed, i had a dog, a west highland white terrior called mickey. he's been with me for about 12 years, which is technically more than half my life. for the past year, he's been staying at my elder bro's house cos he developed some rashes and it grew pretty bad. my elder bro brought him home to visit us occassionally. 2 days ago, my bro brought him back really late one night and from the expression on his face i could tell things were not ok. yesterday morn he told me mickey had cancer and had to be put to sleep and yesterday was his last day.
my bro and his wife just left with him after we've all said our farewells.
he was really a good and sweet dog. remember the times he would lick my nose to wake me up in the morning for school, come into my room and just sit beside me on those late nights, bark at the unseen things in my room, jumped on my bed to snuggle up, start yelping when he wanted to pee but the toilet was in use, being always hungry and beggin for food. I really thank God for putting this dog in my life. it was really fun and comforting.

well i guess the question that pops in is do dogs go to heaven?

then again, i go to heaven to see God, not my dog.

a randomer

2007-06-29T23:49:00.000+08:00

was blog surfin.. well technically not as i only read one. (harry, consider yourself priveledged. lol)
he was sayin somethin abt influencing others, getting their attention and stuff like that, the ideals vs the realists and etc etc. building a building that points to God ideally but might have detrimental effects realistically, how to get ppl's attention in a society and culture of indifference, where people mostly care abt themselves. i think one cockroach is enough for many to freak out. lol.

well, i guess the idea behind it is cos u hit a nerve. their fears, their phobias, those are somethin personal to them. their dreams, ideals, mindsets, concepts, all these Jesus touched on as He created that calendar splitting crevice 2000+ years ago in Israel. i guess this is one area impacts are made.

but of course, one might point out that i'm being idealistic. hitting a nerve with people might cause some to open up and yet some to close up and defend. people out there sometimes jus really dun care.
well. an ideal is just an ideal, yet an ideal is an ideal.
its logical to me that some people will react accordingly in the above mentioned scenario and some will not so then i hope i can get to those who react accordingly. i can't reach out to all but i can reach out to some.

joy ride

2007-06-22T14:36:00.001+08:00

went to lee jun's house. had a rather interestin experience when he 'tompang' me on his bike.. think it was quite a funny experience there standin at the back of his bike. lol. well until he started speedin and goin thru humps did i nearly slip off...

for one more day

2007-06-05T12:01:00.000+08:00

Have you ever come to a point where you lie in bed one night and you wonder about the happenings of the day and then you come to the realisation that the day is forever gone, a full 24 hours of your life that can never be reclaimed. probably about 20 mins gone just by thinking about this.

walk walk walk and a little bit of dilbert

2007-05-10T19:51:00.000+08:00

on a walking spree these days to cut costs of transport. walked to ps today and took me abt. 40 min there and 35 min back, covering a total of abt 5km. in army terms, i should be able to clear that in abt 20 mins of running. lol.
went to the library the other day with stan, mike and hanyang and borrowed some books on marketing, business, economics and politics aka dilbert. for the uninformed, dilbert is a comic strip on cubicle life as an engineer. now i love dilbert for its intellectual jabs at office politics and manageral incompetence, i survived my poly years with it. lol.
some jabs:
---------------------------------------- ON CRITICISM
manager: "Dilbert, this is Peggy the PR Director. I want you to review her press release for technical accuracy."
dilbert: " Who wrote this? A trained squirrel? I don't know where to begin. I'll cross out the run-on sentences and transparent lies first. Then the failed attempts of cuteness... the spelling errors... grammar...
There you go. Remember, criticism makes you stronger."

"POW"

dilbert: " It was a mistake to make her stronger.."
---------------------------------------- ON UNFORSEEN CIRCUMSTANCES
Manager: The project will take six months.. unless there are unforseen problems."
Dilbert: Question. Your leadership has made me unmotivated. Is that considered forseen or unforseen? And Wally is dysfunctional on many levels.
Wally: I really am.
Dilbert: Was that forseen? Or are you saying the schedule is random?
Dilbert: He looks mad.
Alice: I didn't see that coming.
------------------------------------------ ON URGENCY VS IMPORTANCE
Manager: This is urgent. Stop what you're doing and work on it right now.
Dilbert: Is it more important that what i was doing?
Manager: I don't know what you were doing.
Dilbert: Exactly. So how could you know if this is more important?
Manager: You could work late and do both.
Dilbert: Work late? Is this more important than my health?
Manager: Forget it! I'll have Alice do it.

Wally: Just out of curiosity. What are you doing?
Dilbert: Playing "Quake".
------------------------------------------- ON CALCULATIONS
Manager: Good news on your budgets. I did some recalculating last night. I found a way to give more money to every project without increasing the total budget for projects!
Wally: Question. Does you new way involve poor math skills?
Alice: Ignore the skeptic. I have a suggestion! Maybe you could recalculate our salary budget next.
Dilbert: And when was the last time you recalculated our vacation days?
Wally: I calculate that we have an hour left for this meeting. But I'm interested in your calculation.

after meeting, each of them with a hundred dollars..

Dilbert: I think we got greedy when we asked if he had change for a five.
--------------------------------------------- ON GOALS AND BACKSTABBING
Manager: I can only give you a 2% raise this year, Alice. Because your job was not very challenging.
Alice: How could you possibly think it wasn't challenging?
Manager: You exceeded all your goals without complaining. Compare that to Wally's performance. He complained all year and he missed every goal! Now That's a challenging job!
Alice: Wally is a Filthy Weasel!!
Manager: Maybe his hygiene isn't the best. But he was right when he said you would stab him in the back.
--------------------------------- ON HITTING GOALS
Manager: Our goal this year is zero disabling injuries. Last year our goal was twenty-six disabling injuries. In retrospect, that was a mistake. We had to injure nine employees to meet the goal. If you have an injury, fill out these forms immediately.
Wally: These are resgination forms.
Manager: If you cover the word "resignation" with your thumb, it's an injury report.
Wally: This place makes me sick.
Dilbert: We'll miss you.

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ouch

2007-05-03T21:19:00.000+08:00

Ouch.
once bitten
twice shy they say
once bitten
two-fold revenge I say
once bitten
give your other cheeck He says
once smitten
now bitten
I try.

blessed

2007-04-24T22:48:00.000+08:00

jus came back from meeting hanyang and i got another blessing to share! as i was waiting at the traffic light, my bus (131) jus went pass and i was like 'aaargh!' man. it takes abt 20-30min for the bus to come again and instinctively i prayer to God for another bus 131 to come in 5 min. now i really dunno wad caused me to say that as a part of me was like '5 min is like impossible lah'. so there i was waiting for the bus and listening to my mp3. then bus 16 arrived followed by bus 162 some distance behind and then suddenly, bus 131 jus swerved in between bus 16 and 162! i actually said "wah!". lol. so amazed that God knows my needs and takes care of me well. =]

blessed

2007-04-23T23:09:00.000+08:00

wow. after giving my tithe to God last week, God blessed me with 10 times the amount back!
my elder bro dropped by for a visit this afternoon and he gave me $100 cos he said that he got a bonus and even ended of "give to God or somethin". wow, if its not God, who else can it be?

also just met up with a brother and had a very looong talk with him abt doctrines, etc, and i really thank God for His guidance. The Holy Spirit's power was evident in that i didn't stutter at all but spoke fluently and with conviction and also on wad i spoke; many things were really spontaeneous and deemed biblical and there was always this peace and calmness in my heart and mind all the time. i believe that God will work in this brother's life and i really thank God for using me as His mouthpiece. =)

Praise God from whom all blessings flow
Praise Him all creatures here below
Praise Him all ye heavenly host
Praise God and Son and Holy Ghost

an update

2007-04-23T09:39:00.000+08:00

finally, an update. lol. alot of things has been happening recently in ywam. find myself receiving more resposibilities. haha. jus went to visit riverlife church yesterday. the worship, holy communion and sermon touched me and here's a wonderful passsage that they shared during the holy communion. really flowed well with the song Oceans will part.

Lamentations 3:19-26

I remember my affliction and my wandering,
the bitterness and the gall.
I well remember them,
and my soul is downcast within me.
Yet this I call to mind
and therefore I have hope:

Because of the Lord's great love we
are not consumed,
for his compassions never fail.
They are new every morning;
great is your faithfulness.
I say to myself, "The Lord is my portion;
therefore I will wait for him."

The Lord is good to those whose hope
is in him,
to the one who seeks him;
it is good to wait quietly
for the salvation of the Lord.

ppl handlin

2007-03-27T01:40:00.000+08:00

in a world filled with sheep,
its easy to blend in
and laze around all day
out of place it would seem
to bleat loudly and therein
to tell them of another way

the crowd is rowsed
they are listening
some are calloused
some eyes glistening
some follow
some lie mellow

one remarks
on the marks i have
am i not just one of them?
one argues
on the hue and cry
am i not just one of them?

leadin them will be hard
handlin them will be rough
its not abt whether they're black or white
or whether they're wrong or right

emotions may rise
tempers may flare
some despise
some dun quite dare

its abt undsterstanding them
givin them a sandwich with ham
handling them on neutral basis
to avoid a clash or a terrible crisis

dun be personal
or of unsound mind
but get relational
and give them time

whether they're black or white
whether they were wrong or right
given time they will change
their hues will rearrange

by Jem

reality

2007-03-26T09:57:00.000+08:00

sometimes do you wonder if the whole world knows exactly wad u're doin, wad u're thinkin, if the world was jus a sham and prop and ur life a sitcom to everyone else?
its like the truman show, where a guy is raised and lives in an artificial world until he discovers that his life and every action is broadcast to the rest of the real world.
well, wadever the case, i take comfort in knowing that there is an entity out there who knows wad i'm thinkin and doin and that i'm bein looked after. i think its all abt the awareness of that entity's reality in ur life.

blogzup

2007-03-23T16:33:00.000+08:00

its alive! Behold!